_{x.     BASIC ANGST STARTERS.}

_{❛   errr––––––––––   ❜          NO.  as resolute as it is  FRIGHTENING,  the truth hovers above their heads with  MALICIOUS  TENACITY:  for they both know.  a fragile sanity  SHAKEN  by exterior forces;  &  he’s losing  GRASP  on his own humanity to help save others’.  a  SACRIFICE  he’ll blindingly commit with little regard for  SELF - PRESERVATION,  his desire to unveil the truth far  TOO  STRONG  to ignore.  no matter the cost.          ❛   i remember…   being in my house.  my  DOGS  BARKING.  it must have been…  nine or ten in the evening.     &  then––––––––––     standing in a…   a forrest…  it’s the morning.  there’s  DRIED  BLOOD  ON  MY  CLOTHES,  underneath my fingernails.   ❜          a shiver  COURSES  THROUGH  his body when he takes a second to come to  TERMS  with the facts, surreal as they seem.          ❛   i must have lost time again.   ❜          ––––––––––&  someone died.}

_{i. MORNING.     will’s nights are mostly restless. from the time we see him kill garrett jacob hobbs, he is plagued by nightmares  &  uneasy rest. due to his general mental fragility, it is reasonable to assume it has been this way since before the show opens   ( his inability to fire his weapon when he was still a field agent for the fbi certainly reason enough to keep him up at night, as it is made clear in the first episode that this event has left him emotionally scarred ).   taking his sleep disorder into consideration, there is no definite waking hour, although he sets his alarm at eight, he generally wakes up hours before. if the nightmare has been too vivid and draining, he will avoid going back to sleep  &  instead gets out of bed to tend to his morning routine, which unfolds as follows:  making coffee, feeding the dogs  &  taking them out on an early stroll in the nearby fields. he will then carry on with his daily activities  ( fishing / teaching a class / joining jack  &  the team to investigate a new case / meet with hannibal, etc. ).}

_{ii. EVENING.     there are times when he will have to take sleeping pills, if only to battle the anxiety of possible nightmares. he prepares himself for bed by either working on his fishing hooks or reading a book in his living room, surrounded by his dogs. it is customary for him to walk the dogs before going to bed, once again enjoying a peaceful walk   ( ‘ sometimes, at night i leave the lights on in my little house,  &  walk across the flat fields. when i look back from a distance, the house is like a boat on the sea. it’s really the only time i feel safe.‘ ––––– will graham, s1e4 ).   the stroll plays an important part on will’s sense of personal safety, as much as it helps him reflect on cases. he then tries to go to sleep, laid flat on his back.}

_{❰   NIGHTMARE STARTERS.   ❱}

_{longer than he would  READILY ADMIT.  &  not even the intimacy of a room he has  GROWN  strangely accustomed to –––––––––– of a routine he has come to  VALUE –––––––––– not even an amiable hand held out in hopeful attempt to  APPEASE  a restless mind;  oh, not even the  VEILED CONCERN  of a friend benevolently reaching out will see him blatantly  ACKNOWLEDGE  the hard truth.     the frown on his forehead a physical  SIGN  of his inner struggle.           ❛   i’m –––––––––– not exactly sure.     i’m having  DIFFICULTY  remembering a life before jack entered my classroom.   ❜          the low chuckle only  BETRAYS  his growing discomfort.          ❛   the nightmares have only…   gotten more  &  more  VIVID  with each new crime scene i’ve, erm, reconstructed.   ❜          but garrett jacob hobbs is in most of them.}

_{❰   NIGHTMARE STARTERS.   ❱}

_{fingers vigorously  RUB  against heavy eyelids in a desperate attempt to  WIN  a hopeless battle against the unavoidable demons plaguing  RESTLESS NIGHTS.  he dreams more than he used to –––––––––– a truth he must come to  TERMS  with;  imagination prone to thrive when days are  SMEARED  with indelible blood stains.     he’ll just have to  SLEEP LESS.          ❛   actually…  COFFEE  would be nice.   ❜}